Stress

Do you ever feel like your the only one?  The only one stressing and freaking out about what seems like everything?   I'm having one of those moments right this second.  I know that everything will be fine, I can see the rescue boat I just have to climb in (have you ever tried to climb into a boat while your in the water?  Even one with the ladder?  The ladder goes up under the boat and you have to use all your arm strength to pull yourself up).  Anyway, I hate being like this becuase I get down then I start feeling like a failure. 

I'm stressing out about money (everything seems to have hit all at once) so I've failed at my finances and my budget.  I've failed at getting out of debt and trying to save money. 

I'm stressing about my weight so I'm a failure at that.  I feel like I have good intentions but I fall off the eat right & exercise banwagon everyday so I fail everyday. 

Because I'm stressed, I act stressed, stressed = moody!  Never a good combination when your trying to be the best wife and mother. 

You know what is amazing?  Even though I feel all these things and I think I'm failing at everything, God sees something different.  To Him I'm perfect because He fearfully and wonderfully made me.  He reminded me that I have been faithful and consistant with my tithes and my finances.  He reminded me of Malachi 3:10- "Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this," says the LORD Almighty, "and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it."  He asked me, "Didn't I promise you this? So why are you stressing?  You need to release the control and give it to me, have faith in me that I will provide all your needs according to my riches in glory!" 

I needed to ask for forgiveness at this point because I have not put my faith in Him, I have not leaned on Him, I have not asked for His help.  I know He cares for me and everything about me.  Why is that never the first thing I do, cast my cares upon Him?  I feel better already.  Lord, help me to always remember that you are in control and you care about me and what is going on in my life.